10/7/13

sunday stills. photo 40

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A single photo once a week.
To capture my emotions, to sum up the days.
To collect my thoughts and hold them in my hands.

Every Sunday, one photo.

On this Sunday: How is it possible that my little girl turns three this Tuesday?

Is there is a secret to stopping time, to holding still just for a moment? At times I feel like my life is passing me by and I am sitting, patiently, outside watching as it fades away into the distance. My head constantly turning, back and forth, as I was my children race through life. And as they race and grow it seems that I am standing still, stuck in my confusion and distortion of time.

Time is confusing. Life really does goes by that fast.

Yesterday, I blinked and we were celebrating Jessica's third birthday, Jonas was sleeping over at friends and Joshua started to read. How is this possible, I think to myself. I can still remember so clearly when each of my children were born and it still feels like yesterday.

But what I'm learning is that yesterday was eight years ago, six years ago and three years ago. "Yesterday" are the memories that we have created over all those years, yesterday are the photos that I tuck away in frames and drawers, yesterday are the words that I write and share. I am learning to embrace the today, the now. I am learning to let go and not get caught up in small moments, I am learning to step away, I am learning to turn off the computer, to set down my phone and spend those moments of today with my family. Because right around the corner is tomorrow and today is gone.

Today becomes yesterday which becomes just a memory, and I want those memories filled with children, family and laughter.

With that being said, I am off to embrace today. The kids are off school and we have a full day planned. You'll find us playing kitchen and house, building legos, painting, working on puzzles, going to the movies and jumping on beds.

4 comments:

  1. She is precious! Happy Birthday! Gray's is today. He doesn't look like 8 looks in my mind. He is still my little boy!

    Steph

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    1. Happy Birthday Gray! I know the feeling, Jonas isn't allowed to be 8 :)

      Missing you, as always. xo

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